So, Its 11:46 at night and I am not in the least bit tired. I figured I havent blogged in awhile, so hopefully this will make me somewhat sleepy. August has been an emotional month for the Newman family. My Dad passed away on August 4th. He had been fighting cancer for the past 17 months. I feel like cancer somewhat prepares you for the idea of death, but I dont ever think you can be completely ready to say goodbye. We are all blessed to have had the time we were given with Dad, but it is still very hard. I feel like I struggle with my emotions on a daily basis. Some days are harder than others. I'm sure I will blog about Dad and Cancer for awhile, and I'm hoping it will assist in my healing process. People tell me on a daily basis, " I don't know how you are being so strong". The thing is, I dont really have any other option than to be strong. My Dad was strong his entire life, up until the very end. The alternative to being strong is crying every day, and I do not want to live my life like that. My Dad wouldnt want me to live my life like that. So, for now, I am strong, and I am ok. I find myself still saying, "Mom and Dad's house", or "Dad likes _____". I don't life referring to him in past tense. He is not past tense to me, as he will always be a part of my life. I'm not sure if that will ever change. I'm not sure if I ever want that to change. Anyway, thats all I can do on that topic right now.
Moving on...Les, my baby sister, moved to Temple to start her big girl job! I am oh so proud of her, and cannot wait to see her new place. This is the farthest we have ever been apart, and of course I'm a little sad about it. However, this will allow us to spend more time together when we are in the same city visiting, rather than a couple hours every now and then. I love you SISSA! BSITW!
I signed up for my first half marathon! It is the San Antonio Rock N Roll 1/2 in November. I am sooo excited and I'm really looking forward to training.
Alright, thats all for now. I will leave you with some insight of my past month. Have I mentioned that it's almost Friday!!!
This past month I have.....
Reconnected with an old friend
Seen love at it's finest
Watched Laguna beach over and over and over again
Lost my Daddy
Hated Cancer for taking my Dad
Appreciated Cancer for the way it taught my family to view life
Had cupcakes for breakfast...three times!
This past week I have...
Missed my Dad
Been productive at work
Hugged good friends
Cried
Laughed
Lived
Today I...
Felt like a grown up
Rescued my friend from downtown
Visited the 5th Ward
Looked at happy pictures of my Dad
